Being Human

Have you ever imagined what it would be like to be deaf or blind?


It’s actually happened to me.

I have been deaf for a moment. A few hours to be exact. I lost hearing in my left ear and I totally freaked out. So much so that I did what any normal human being would do…

I went to the CVS MINUTE CLINIC.

Yes, you read that right.

You can eat a bag of Doritos, pop a bag of M&Ms, sip on a red bull, all the while you wait to see the Doc. That’s a win in my book.

Did mention I was freaking out?

My hearing had been gradually disappearing over the last six months until one morning I woke up and literally fell out of bed. My ear was completely deaf and my balance was completely gone. It was scary! I remembered learning in some science class that ears had to do something with balance. I guess they were right.

I’m sitting in the waiting area at CVS pleading with God, praying that the doctor behind the door can help me. I finally get called in, two red bulls deep, and immediately I can sense she notices the fear and panic that I’m in. My heart must have been beating a million miles an hour.

So I walk into the room and the Doctor asks, “What brings you in today?”

Very awkwardly and dramatic I say, “I’m deaf!”

I think she was pretty taken back because I’m sure I must have yelled.

She then began to look at my ear and said, “Wow, your ear is really plugged!”

Are you getting the picture?

So the Doctor goes into her explanation about what procedure she is going to do to unplug my ear, and pulls from one of her drawers a permission/waiver form.




Is this really happening?

She begins to explain how this is REALLY going to HURT and how I should prepare myself.



Just a side note; when I’m nervous or anxious about something, I just begin to sweat. I can literally feel the sweat dripping down my back and face. This is it. Goodbye ear.

So the “doctor” (as I’m now questioning what school would actually license this devil woman to operate on me at a CONVENIENCE STORE) takes what looks like an electric toothbrush that just doesn’t push water through it, but sucks it out as well. A tool of the devil I’m sure…and it hurts…


She proceeds to put the tool into my ear, and I begin to feel like my brain is being sucked right through my ear into what looks like a small toilet bowl, and this went on for what felt like ages.

Then all of a sudden I hear and feel a massive…


Within seconds I hear the Doctor gasp and say, “EWWWWWW…”

Again, not what you expect to hear from a “doctor” at your local convenience store.

At this moment my ear is now completely unclogged and I can hear perfectly.

So, I should be pretty happy right?

You would think, but you’re not going to believe this…

The Doctor begins to say, “What i’m about to tell you may disturb you, and you might want to lay down afterwards.”


She then proceeds to take the toilet looking bowl object and presents it to me and says,


I look down, and you know that feeling when you can feel the throw up rising up your esophagus?

Yeah, that's what was happening.

So I look into the bowl and there it is…


YES, a bug.

I swear to you, this bug was literally the size of Rhode Island, and it had been living in my ear for at least 6 months.

In complete shock I say, “You're right, I need to lay down.”


May I propose to you this;

We as humans have lost the art of being human. That everyone is someone. That everyone has basic needs and wants of being human. That we are all equal.

We are reeling from the moral decay and social disorder in our nation that has been exposed by this election. It has revealed a deep pain in our country and in our city. People are scared. People are angry. People are hurting.

Now, more than ever, is the time for followers of Jesus to be makers of peace.

So, I want to start off by saying,


I’m sorry.


May I dare to even say, I’m sorry for not being human. For not caring about the real issues, and turning a deaf ear and blind eye to them.

Forgiveness cannot change the past, but I believe it can change the future.

So let's start there.

First, I want to state for the record that I am not an expert at all in any of these issues. However, I know longer want to close my eyes, and cover my ears to the hurting and the broken. My perspective as a minority is this, someone fought for us, paved the way, and now it’s our turn.



It seems to me more now than ever that history is repeating itself over and over again with the issue of racism. That you’re defined by the color of your skin, your ethnic background, economic status, religion, and are deemed less human than other races. Lets be honest if we can, if you’re not a white/caucasian in this day your life is not treated the same.  We keep saying ‘all lives matter’ because this is a logical assumption that most reasonable people agree with.  

but, it seems that ‘most’ people are not reasonable.


I’m sorry.

Why is it;

that if you’re black some places are not safe for you.

that if you’re arabica you’re labeled as a terrorist.

If you’re latino some think you must have come here illegally.

If you identify as LGBTQ that you have been ostracized.

If you have been displaced with no country to go back to, and we have not received you with open arms.


How has this happened?

The question is, is this really being human?



To be honest I don’t even know where to begin, or really what to say.

Other than, I’m sorry.

You’re equal!

You always have been, since the beginning!

More than ever we live in this digital urban age where Women have been made less equal then men. Society has made you more of an object rather than a human. Looked over, deemed unqualified, second best, and shamed.

Where do we come off believing this? What makes me being a man any better?

Is this humanity?


The Church

The church has become more irrelevant then ever.

If this offends you, good.

Maybe you’re part of the problem, and not the solution?

More than ever in my life I feel embarrassed to be called a pastor, because I wonder if I am part of the disease rather than the cure?


The church is meant to be about people, and for people.








When it’s really been about;








How has this come to be?


Final Thoughts

These are only a few issues of many.

What do we do next?

I don’t know. This is why The Forgiveness Project exists.

I do know that we need to open our eyes, open our ears, and accept this reality then begin to change it.

If we don’t, who will?

Revolution is going to happen.

The question is, is it going to be a revolution of love? Or a revolution of hate?

Only we can answer that question.


Don’t lay down.

Be Human.


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